Like any other day I was lazily backtracking some of the tweets on my timeline, when I suddenly spotted a tweet that went like this:

Bea San Jose: @ninaconsulta mm laser tag at gh. 10 am? :) @argowho @amagundah @abrathehun

Bea, nina, bella, amanda, and abby are my LnK-mates. And well, they’re the people I always stick to whenever I attend an LnK session. I kind of felt hurt after reading that tweet. I mean, look at it, I’m the only one not tagged. Okay, you could say I’m overreacting, I’m not even that close to them after all. But heck, they even invited Bella. Bella’s just as close to them as I am since we’re always together, so why does that make her any different from me? I’m not butthurt about not being able to “bond” with them in this whatever outing, even if they invited me I most probably wouldn’t go anyway, but just the fact that they purposely excluded me is really offensive on my side. So thanks for nothing. 

haruna-ono:

this almost made me tear up

(Source: ironinkpen, via declineimportance)

I honestly don’t get why a lot of people hate her. They say she acts too “cutesy” and “childish”, but I don’t know haven’t you guys thought that maybe that’s just the way she normally acts? I mean, She can’t really change her face structure even if she wanted to, come on admit it, she’s kind of naturally cute. (<—personal opinion don’t kill me). I just don’t see what they see, all I see is an idol like any other.

P.S. She’s my f(x) bias. 

Okay first of all, who is Paisley? She’s the luckiest fangirl on EARTH. She was the girl called to sit on stage to be serenaded by the Changkyu duo. And recently I just found out that she finally posted a fan account of the incident. 

AND FUCK EVERYTHING. I CRIED. I LITERALLY. CRIED.

I felt so many things while reading that log. There’s envy, desperation, envy, spazzms, envy, inspiration etc. I mean…seriously. Here’s an excerpt of the part that made me cringe the most : 

“Changmin led me to the side of the front right stage and walked us along there. When we go to the stairs he let go and ran down the stairs and waited for me at the bottom. He look my hand again and I squeezed really tight. I was freaking out I thought Changim was taking me back stage and so did he. When he was ducking under the stage curtains a security guy stopped him and pointed at me. He looked back and squeezed my hand again and smiled at me and nodded at me. Then the second Producer who was in charge of me pulled at my other hand and Changmin let go of mine and looked back at me before he was pushed by the security guys and a couple crew members to run back stage.” 

Good Lord. How. Lucky. Is. She. My luck is as valuable as a dying leaf next to her’s. I seriously cried. She described all the happenings in such detail that I couldn’t help but feel absolutely jealous. But it’s the not jealous feeling that drives me to start bashing and hating on her, no. It’s sort of a good jealous. I was so…so envious that I promised, I PROMISED myself that I would maybe one day be like her. I suddenly had the motivation to save up as much money as i can for a start. I don’t care if I have to fly all across the world to get into an SM TOWN concert, I just. Have to. Even once. 

So emotional right now.